Cursed

I really really really think that Ell is a CURSED! Fucked up doe,why i have to get through these feelings when im with her? Im fucking afraid of her right now,I do regret like really really regret.Why Kiki have to leave me? And why am I suppose to be with Ell? Yes I love em' both,no equal.I want to kill Ell but i cant keep her away from me,I told you she was a cursed.This is fucking KARMA shit! Atleast Im not facing it alone,thanks Ell.I love you so much,help me please.GRR! I miss you moron!