DNY JHN's

Dugaan

2012-03-05T00:33:00.000-08:00

Hari ni aku rasa nak luahkan perasaan sangat-sangat,rasanya tak ada masalah sangat pun.Kolej ok je,aku seronok je pergi kolej hari-hari.Lagi pun sekarang ni life aku memang kat kolej je,aku dah tak lepak sangat.Hari ni Lecture aku tak masuk kelas sebab dia ada hal,jadi dia tinggalkan kelas dan suruh siapkan kerja.

Kerja aku dah siap,aku pun tak ada apa nak buat.Yang bestnya hari ni aku duduk dalam kelas melukis je,dah lama aku tak melukis.Bila dapat lukis aku rasa jakun macam orang baru dapat pegang pensil,mungkin tu salah satu cara untuk aku release tension kot.Actually tak ada lah tension sangat,cuma ada beberapa masalah je kot.

I.First,sejak dua menjak ni aku rasa aku dengan Fatin macam tak boleh masuk kepala lah.Aku pun tak tau kenapa,dia ok,baik je.Bertudung pulak tu,apa yang tak ngam pon aku tak tau.Mungkin aku ni je yang bermasalah,tapi apa yang aku rasa lain pulak.Aku ni macam menipu diri aku sendiri,aku terlalu taksub dengan perubahan yang aku alami sekarang.Dekat mana silapnya? aku sendiri tak tau,Fatin ok je.Dia memang ada ciri-ciri perempuan yang aku nak,tapi aku macam masih lagi tercari-cari.Aku tak pernah pun luahkan perasaan aku dekat dia,bukan aku taknak,aku cuma takut.Kitaorang bukan tak sesuai,pada aku kalau aku betul-betul nak berubah Fatin lah orang yang paling sesuai jadi girlfriend aku.Bukannya aku tak sayang dia,entah lah.Benda ni jadi cepat sangat,mungkin aku tak bersedia lagi kot.

II.Ell,ye aku memang menyesal dengan apa yang aku dah buat dekat dia.Aku tak patut buat dia macam tu,biar yang tau je la tau apa dah jadi.Malas nak panjangkan cerita,memang aku ada text dia 2-3 hari ni.Aku nak betulkan keadaan,aku dah rasa ok sekarang.Nak ikutkan perasaan lama-lama pon tak boleh jugak,aku tau Ell nak balik kat aku tapi dia saja nak psycho aku.Dia buat macam tu bukannya sengaja,dia saja nak tengok aku boleh tahan ke tak.Disebabkan ego,aku buat-buat tak peduli je.Sekarang baru aku rasa kehilangan,memang aku tipu diri aku sebenarnya.Ego aku ni ke langit tinggi bukan main,sampaikan aku tak pedulikan Ell.Lepas tu aku yang kononnya boleh berubah pergi dekat Fatin,macam aku cakap tadi,benda ni jadi cepat sangat.Fatin pun terima aku tanpa usul periksa.Aku tau Ell tak akan abaikan aku,dia reply je texts aku semua.Mula-mula memang dia macam kerek sikit,tapi lama-lama dia bagi respon ok je.Dia tak keras hati sebenarnya,saja je tu.Kalau dia balik tau la macam mana aku nak layan dia.

III.Sem ni,kelas SVD ada lecture sambilan baru nama dia Shahirah.Aku tak ada apa masalah pon dengan lecture tu,lagi pun dia bukan lecture kelas aku.Tapi tadi aku banyak habiskan masa tengok dia melukis je.Dia ajar student kelas dia melukis gambar arnab je pun,apa yang menariknya kan? Lukisan dia tu tak ada lah menarik sangat,memang tak menarik pun.Dia yang menarik perhatian aku sebenarnya,kenapa? Sebab muka dia macam muka Kiki,pantat! Beberapa minggu lepas,masa aku dengan group aku tengah siapkan projek kitaorng.Nak dekat 10 kali aku masuk kelas SVD scan lukisan,sampaikan aku pergi scan lukisan yang tak ada kena mengena dengan projek aku semata-mata nak usha dia.Budak kelas aku dok tanya apa aku buat kat kelas SVD,aku bagitau la yang aku dok usha Cik Shahirah ni.Diaorng kata Cik Shahirah tu tak ada la lawa mana pon.Haha,sama lah macam Kiki,pada pandangan orang memang dia tak lawa.Aku tak macam laki lain,aku kan orang seni,jadi aku pandang sesuatu tu dari perspektif yang berbeza dan pada pandangan mata aku Kiki sangat comel dengan perangai dia yang kebudak-budakan tu.HAHA! Gaya Cik Shahirah tu tak ada la sama macam Kiki tapi lebih kurang,perangai pun macam budak-budak dan dia bertudung,ok aku memang minat orang pakai tudung sekarang ni.WTF? Entah lah,aku suka tengok Cik Shahirah tu.Dia baik,sanggup stay back semata-mata nak ajar student dia melukis arnab.Macam bodoh kan? Memang bodoh pon,yang aku pisang je dok tengok diaorang melukis arnab.Haih! Mintak-mintak la esok lecture aku ada hal lagi,boleh aku pergi usha dia,haha.

Aku sungguh-sungguh nak berubah,benda-benda macam ni semua dugaan yang kena aku lalui agaknya.Aku pon confuse,kadang-kadang aku fikir betul ke apa yang aku buat ni.Siapa yang patut aku pilih sebenarnya? Dalam hidup ni memang kena buat pilih,aku mengaku aku tak pandai buat pilihan.

Aku kaut je mana-mana yang ada,kalau aku taknak pilih aku boleh je go on dengan Fatin,kalau tak ngam dengan Fatin,Ell kata bila-bila dia nak balik,dia balik.Kalau dia tak balik jugak,aku boleh tunggu sampai bulan Mei.Tapi kalau masa tu tak berpeluang untuk jumpa Kiki,aku percaya dia memang bukan jodoh aku.

Aku pun dah malas nak fikir dan taip panjang-panjang,ngantok sebenarnya ni.Nak tidur lepas tu mimpi gangbang,haha! Ngam ah,aku kawen je dengan empat-empat perempuan ni.Settle masalah,tapi mesti dapat bantahan keras dari Ell.Dia cakap kalau dia tak dapat aku,dia akan pastikan aku mati dengan tragis.Katanya lah,entah la weyh.Berserah je lah,chaw!

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VLOG

2012-03-02T04:05:00.000-08:00

Ok,now my vlog are on Youtube.You guys can go to my channel and subscribe,blablabla.

http://www.youtube.com/user/dnyjhn/videos

Penakut By Yuna

2012-03-02T00:24:00.000-08:00

Yeah,you should dedicade this song to me actually.Its not fair isnt? Haha,its so not fair.

New Addiction

2012-02-22T09:02:00.000-08:00

Check this out mayn,haha.See I got a reason why Im on twitter like 24/7,she's so sweet like OMG,thank you for giving a chance for me to get known this girl.HAHA! I miss you so much Fatin,I wanna meet you but we were both busy right.Umm,you're going for an out station this friday aite? So we might be not texting each other all the time i guess,but nevermind.I'll play nice when you're not around,dont worry.

First Date

2012-02-19T07:42:00.000-08:00

Ok this gonna be a short update,treeetttt.I met Fatin Syazana yesterdey,what the hell? She's a nice girl,pretty and quite clumsy thou,haha.I like her,seriously Im fell in love with her,I wanna be in a fucking serious relationship with her but not too soon oraite.Take it slow baby,daym! I believe she'll bring lots of changes into my life.I dont know why am I saying this,nehh.Whatever,haha! Ehem,Fatin thank you very much ok and I love you so much.Since you already made the first move,let me do the rest ok! :)

Me Gal

2012-02-16T20:36:00.000-08:00

Wuuuuuu,baby I love your way everyday eyay.Haha,first thing when I woke up from my bed I read your text.Daymm,I was very happy and speechless at the moment.Thank you very much,I love you Fatin.I cant stop smiling you know,seriously this girl are my brand new Mary Jane.You'll be the perfect joint to my roll shawty :)

Workspace Promo

2012-02-07T01:17:00.000-08:00

Promo Video

Check out this promo video,thank you :)

One Eye Picture

2012-02-06T10:30:00.000-08:00

My personal project name 'One Eye Picture' ,I do some photography and graphic designs.

Contact

Facebook: Danny Johan
Twitter: @DNYJHN
Skype: DNYJHN

PM me for my number,thank you very much

Some Goals

2012-02-05T22:50:00.000-08:00

Ok here are some of my target for this year,first Im going to buy my dream bike,Kawasaki KLX 150.InsyaAllah Im going to have it end of this month or maybe in the middle of March,next Im going to build my own production house or should i say my own company called "One Eye Pictures" ,just a small business of photography and graphic design.Last thing is,since I feel very single at the moment.I'll find a new girlfriend,HAHA.So lets wish best of luck to myself,good luck.

Itik Pokpek

2012-02-04T20:47:00.000-08:00

#Vlog 4

Angie

2012-01-30T23:12:00.000-08:00

Angie Angie Angie,ya firstly im sorry because this might hurt someone's feelings but neh i dont care because Im hurts too.I dont know why at the suddent I listen to Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars,yeah its our song right Angie? I feel like crying right now because i miss you so much,when are you coming back? You'll come back right? We made a promise before you left,now you're gone like missing.

These pain torturing,its hurt deeply inside.Ya Im sick waiting but still waiting for you to come home,almost 5 months Angie.Where the hell are you? Have you forgotten me? No,Im sure you not right? Please come back,theres nothing there.Im here,will be always here right at home waiting for you.Im tormented by my own mistake,its bullshit Angie.How could you be so cruel letting me in this motherfucker situation?

No calls and texts from you,what the fuck? If you're running away,I'll chase you no matter where you go I'll find you.I wanna speak to you,I dont mind if its only for a second.Just let me hear your cute voice for once,if this is a lesson I thank you but please stop it as soon as possible.I learn alot from this torture,it feels like bullshit.I never wanted to be this way and I believe that you dont want it either right?

So you should be here like right now! Angie,I love you.I always do,whatever happen to our perfect two? If Im a hero,where are you as my sidekick? I dont know if I could ever be without you cause girl you are the one who complete me but where are you Angie? You're not here,I need you.Im afraid if I cant succes in my life because of losing you,I need you back in my life.Im alway gonna be your baby right Angie?

Haha,its funny because Im crying right now.You should see my face and laugh,I love to see you laughing.You are so cute like 9 years old girl,I guess its enough.I'll be waiting ok? I love you so much,I miss you so much.I need you like a babies need they mother,remember our promises,our precious moments and all the things we have been through together ok Angie? Dont let me go,promise me that.Bye,Aby loves you so much.God please bring her back to me. :'(

My Decision

2012-01-26T19:03:00.000-08:00

In life we have to make a decision,no matter if Im not good in it i have to make it.Now I already made my decision,other than making a decision,in life we keep secrets.Sometimes we shared and sometime we kept it ourself.I had made my decision and it will be a secret to myself,I wont regret this time.Im big enough to determine my love life blablabla,haha.Soon we'll meet again,may God bless us and all the best for you.

Life must go on,I'll be nowhere but here.Im sure you know how to find me,you will find me.You know how to take a good care of me and thats what you always do,in return,I'll sacrifices my life to treat you like an angel.I'd do anything for you,I learn a lesson from my mistakes.What a stupid person Im? Huh,how could I wish to tell that I miss you so much? Its not easy to hide this feelings,but no worries.I can face it,piece of cake.

Last but not least,all as planned.Just stick to the fucking plan,everything will just be fine.I'll never fail this time because i prepared the manual instruction booklet and the most important thing is,I always have back up plans.How was that? Yeah man,Im supercool.Who are patient will get what they wished for.Time wouldnt tell,just wait,pray and see.

Kawasaki KLX 150

2012-01-24T06:47:00.000-08:00

Dude! I will own this monster i swear to God,daym mayn! You'll be mine baby,mine mine mine! Wait for it,haha.Ell need to loose weight if she wanna have a ride with this monster fo'sho,neh other chicks will do.She doesnt want to have a ride with me,GAHAHAHA! Cant wait to have this bike,oh God please let me have it now,please please please!

Hello Again

2012-01-24T06:26:00.000-08:00

Hey waddup guys? Sorry i didnt update these few days,i was busy spending my time with Ellynda Johan.Nothing much to tell,everything just doing fine.I just thinking to move on,i dont wanna leave this life.I want a new life,i wanna had a good college life and part time job.InsyaAllah,may god fulfilled my prayer,amin.So dont forget to catch my next update,see you later in next post.Happy Chinese New Year by the way,Gong Xi Fa Chai.Chaw!

Day In College

2012-01-19T22:45:00.000-08:00

VLOG 3#

It's Monday

2012-01-16T01:45:00.000-08:00

VLOG #2

Just a short video,I'm in a rush nothing much to talk.

Cursed

2012-01-14T05:34:00.000-08:00

I really really really think that Ell is a CURSED! Fucked up doe,why i have to get through these feelings when im with her? Im fucking afraid of her right now,I do regret like really really regret.Why Kiki have to leave me? And why am I suppose to be with Ell? Yes I love em' both,no equal.I want to kill Ell but i cant keep her away from me,I told you she was a cursed.This is fucking KARMA shit! Atleast Im not facing it alone,thanks Ell.I love you so much,help me please.GRR! I miss you moron!

Next Monday

2012-01-12T04:48:00.000-08:00

My class for second sem are going to start on 16 Jan,this coming monday mayn! Daym,im so fucking excited to go back to my college and i wanna meet new junior.Hopefuly theres a hot chick for this sem,so cant wait doe.KKSY,here i come for you baby.The Rangers are back after a long break,it going to be chaos again! Wuuu,I need to wake up early start on next week.That are so not cool,nevermind.I love to go to college,I can play all day.See you next monday Rangers. ♥ ♥ ♥

Nightmare

2012-01-10T21:00:00.000-08:00

These lately I had a strange dreams,so called nightmare.Duh,I really dont get it but Im glad that Freddy Kruger didnt come in my dream.Haha! He is a fucking nightmare and the other is Ellynda's snooring,fucked up.Maybe I didnt hear it for two days,thats why i had these fucking nightmare.Arrgh! Nonsense shit to think,nevermind.It just a dream and it has nothing to do with me and my life,i need a Psychiatrist.

Ellynda Johan

2012-01-10T01:41:00.000-08:00

#Vlog1

Im no longer with Kiki Azmi,she left for a good reason.Since this post's title called Ellynda Johan,I dont wanna talk about other person.Ok,Ell and i are back together.Yeah shes kinda not really my type anymore but i appreciated her very much because she came back and wont let me suffer on my own,thank you so much Bun.Lets make things up slowly ok,I do love you like I'd die for you.I swear to god I love you so much Ellynda Johan ♥

As we both heard what had Edward told Bella in Twilight Breaking Dawn film we watched,"The first year will be the hardest".Yes,we had been through lots of tough things.I promised you that this year will be ours,less argument more love and lots of loves.To be honest with you,I do love Kiki much.I hope you can treat me better than her,I trust you and i know you will do it for me.May Allah bless on our crazy relationship,thanks love ♥

These will be a little bit introduction to my new story,for more check out the new updates okay? By the way thank you for following my blog even though its not intresting at all,but nevermind.I just like to share my stories,thats all.To Those arent intrested,that are so not my problem.I wont force you to read and I wont make you feel bad if you read it,I just think that i have an awesome stories to tell.If you dont like it,you have to love the fact that you're not awesome.Bye!

*I edited and reupload the VLOG :)